Okay so I pulled a card this morning. The Knight of Swords.
Why this might not be accurate: I only got my deck yesterday and I don't know if it's purified properly and attuned. I don't know if I shuffled correctly. I didn't go as deeply into my meditation as I usually do and I'm really empathetic so thinking of others might have affected the reading. Especially since I forgot to focus on the question while I was shuffling.
Reasons it might be accurate. It does describe me and an ongoing problem I have. Allowing myself to be vulnerable with others. I'm supposed to be second guessing myself which is wild because I always am. And it says my imbalance (ahaha I'm a Libra and Temperance is my shadow card) will leave me unprepared for what's ahead. So I have to work on that I guess.
I am overconfident in my abilities sometimes, I suppose. I usually assume I can do anything I set my mind to. The question was supposed to be what card should I embody today. So maybe I'm just supposed to embrace the positive qualities today or maybe I'm supposed to try and stay balanced today. I'll try to keep an eye out for how the knight of swords manifests through my day.
So if I'm supposed to embody the knight, does that mean that I need to be more willing to defend my ideas? What else I've realized is that I apparently search for the negative first without thinking. I read and appreciated the positive qualities of the knight but I paid more attention to the negative qualities and how they affected me. I really believe in self-improvement but maybe I need to get a bit better at self-love. They always say you have to love yourself first right? Maybe I also need to accept and embrace my own vulnerabilities.
Edit: My tarot readings are going to be backdated, but feel free to comment and share any advice and your own tarot experiences!