NOT ENOUGH
What do I have to do?
Because I’ve tried so hard
and it’s not enough
I’m so confused
I just want you to love me
I want you to want me
by your side
I want you to tell me
all your secrets
I want you to know
you don’t have to hide
We could be so close
like chocolate and peanut butter
except you don’t like chocolate
and I don’t like peanut butter
and neither of us like me
But I really like you
I don’t do low
apparently
except I am low
because of you
My self-esteem
my faith in myself
my capacity
to shield my heart
I’ve cried actual tears
over you
You should feel privileged
because that
I can assure you
is a rare event
I didn’t even cry over him
Not a second time anyway
So you’ve had your first chance
but I know you could make me cry
again
Which means for my own health
I need to stop
I hear the disdain
when you talk about me
I see the way you can’t
stand the sight of me
I get that you don’t want me around
I don’t know how to deal with it
but I guess I have to
Because I’m on another road
that leads to nowhere
But I’ve learned that lesson
and it hurts but
I’m willing to step off the path